He’s Working It Out (Marie)

He’s Working It Out (Marie)

Posted by ourstonepile in Testimony, Written Testimony

August 7, 2010

Fourteen years ago I had been admonished by several leaders to give up a battle I was in with a con artist. But I could not see my financial empire taken from me by him or anyone else. Months went by…years went by…and my finances dwindled but I would not give in. Almost bankrupt, the judge finally told me what I wanted to hear. I won…I beat the con artist at his own game…I….I…I…I…Down deep I was telling God I could do this by myself…I thought. Here it is 14 years later and it pops up again…only this time, my finances are gone and if it wasn’t for my youngest sister I probably would not have a roof over my head. But, God is blessing me in spite of myself.

This August 4th the worst (I thought) financial crisis shattered me. I wrestled with it, tossed and turned, could not sleep throughout the night, woke up thinking about it, and finally I prayed. I said, “Lord, you told me to give this up 14 years ago and I didn’t. Would you please give me peace about truly giving up this problem? But I want you to be fair…okay?”

I spoke with a couple confidant connections and was stirred again to fight…to “be a good steward over what God has given you.”

I attended Connect Group that evening all set to garner information to fight. Shared part of this testimony with Hue and we talked extensively. I felt I should fight. However, at the very end of our conversation Hue asked me if I would be willing to walk away. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I said “yes” with my lips, but my heart wasn’t in it. I wasn’t at all at peace when I left Connect Group. In fact I cried all the way home. That night was the worst night I had in a very, very long time. I think I have a tiny inkling how Jacob must have felt when he wrestled with the Lord. Songs and scriptures turned over and over in my spirit…”Give it to Jesus”…”He will keep you in perfect peace if your mind is stayed on Him”…”Jesus can work it out if you let Him”…”Cast your cares on me”…”Let the peace of God rule down in your heart”…”Let not your heart be troubled”…and on and on. That morning I continued to vacillate between “yes” and “no way am I going to give this up”, back and forth until finally I sat at my computer and reluctantly started typing the letter to give up my property. I could not believe what I was doing…but oh, the peace that came. I now know what the peace that passes all understanding feels like. I thanked God for his peace. I told my sister, “I feel like flying. I’m free.” I went to the bank, had the letter notarized and dropped it in the mail. The peace of God overwhelmed me and I told myself, “I’m going to stand on God’s Word- I can do all things through Him.”

“That problem that I had

I couldn’t seem to solve

I tried and I cried

But kept getting deeper involved

So I turned it over to Jesus

And I stopped worrying about it

I turned it over to the Lord

And He’s working it out.”

AMEN

Marie

03 Sep 2010 no comments
  • Nate September 3, 2010 at 2:02 pm / Reply

    awesome Marie! thanks for sharing this.

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