Fearless Danielle is out of her Shell… (Danielle)
I have been trying to live a new life, a fearless life. Due to some sudden endings and changes in life, I have had time to clear my head and reflect with God. I realized that my whole life has fit into a little box of fear. I have been too afraid to do this, eat that, jump this. I vowed I would try to live a fearless life physically and spiritually. Why should I deny life because of fear? God takes care of me, that’s the only thing that should matter.
To be quite honest, my motive for this new Fearless Danielle was to win my ex-boyfriend back. Dangerous and dumb, yes, I know. After the sad realization that he was not coming back nor do I want him back right now, I got to thinking what the real motive of Fearless Danielle was. I figured out that I want to live fearless because that is what God wants me to do. We are called as Christians to live whole-heartedly in Christ; fear inhibits that so I vowed to kick my fearlessness into action.
My first fearless act was first and foremost to surrender everything to God. I laid every emotion, both positive and negative, upon the Lord. The next step was to venture into my eating habits. I had my first hamburger in about thirteen years. The reason why I never ate anything other then chicken or turkey and was such a picky eater was because my ten year-old self did not like it so that mindset was stuck. The burger was delicious!
Next step, ride some roller coasters. I was terrified (ask my best guy friends; I did not say one word until that first ride was over). At the end of the day, I rode one of the most extreme coasters and loved it!
I have just become braver in life; where squeezing through cars on my bike in the busy city streets is becoming the norm. Or hopping over a thirty-foot drop to the roof next door is becoming a habit.
A few days ago, I came across a verse in 2 Timothy (1:7) that read, “The spirit that God has given us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love, and self-discipline.” What a reassurance! Today at church, I let God flood my heart, eyes closed, hands raised. God lifted me up. I saw myself float upward, my feet never left the ground but I was transported toward the sky, where I was greeted with warmth. I saw the people below me still worshiping but tens of feet below me. God gave me this vision straight from His heart to mine. I am His child no matter what. Whether there is a broken heart or confusion on my path in life, I am to keep faith in Him and Him alone. I am special, uniquely special under the eyes of the Lord.
I am liking this new Fearless Danielle. She is finally out of her shell!